My dear uterus,
We have been through so much together and I am deeply grateful for every experience we shared. While my awareness of you didn’t really come until my menstrual cycles began, I know you played a vital role from the very beginning. In truth our relationship began before I was even conceived. I know with all my heart I had chosen a challenging path filled with many powerful life lessons designed for the awakening and evolution of my soul.
We have healed so much together through painful and heavy menstrual cycles, sexual abuse, fibroids, adenomyosis, endometriosis, fertility challenges, a miscarriage, pregnancy, child birth, times of deep loss and buckets of shame and guilt.
The last 10 years have been particularly challenging and at times brought me to my knees. I made a conscious choice to heal at the deepest possible level and for the longest time I thought that meant you had to heal along with me. As I peeled away all the layers of guilt, shame, grief, fear and pain many symptoms improved yet you continued to weep. As an intuitive healer I believed that ANYTHING can be healed and I did everything possible to heal you. Even when I healed several fibroids they would grow back. I knew I wasn’t getting to the root.
I opened my mind to a new perspective. I became wide open to the guidance and willing to look at any path I was guided toward. When I finally let go of my attachment to heal you and became wide open to the guidance within my heart I finally heard the truth.
We created a spiritual contract for this lifetime that was designed to end with surgery. It was already written that there would come a point when it was time to remove you from my physical body. It took months for me to fully let go of my deep desire to heal you. It just wasn’t meant to be.
We had programmed you for a lifetime of dis-ease on purpose so that one day I would wake up and realize it was time to say goodbye. When I was able to release all my fear of having surgery, my shame around not being able to heal you, my worry about how I would recover, my concerns and fears about what others would think and my judgment that as an intuitive healer I should be able to heal anything in my own body, my decision to have a hysterectomy was clear in my heart.
I know in my heart I have made the best decision for both of us because when I follow my guidance it is for everyone’s highest good including you. We have walked this path of healing for many years and I am grateful for the role you played in my life. You played your part well.
I release the fear of not having another child as well as the fear of becoming pregnant once again. For my body is not meant to have another pregnancy in this lifetime. I release the shame you held for me and I am grateful for the powerful lessons you taught me. I free you from our sacred contract and hold you in gratitude forever and a day.
Weep no more my sacred friend for you are now free.
Thank you for everything you did for me. It was all worth it. I bid you farewell my good friend and hold your energy forever in my body and soul. It has been 5 weeks after surgery and I still feel your presence. While you have been physically removed from my body your energy and love remains within. It feels as if the dis-eased programming has been removed with my physical uterus and an energetic uterus remains in place.
I feel stronger physically, mentally and emotionally. I feel more joy and excitement for the adventures that life holds for me. My spirit is rising above the binds of suffering and my soul is evolving as the changes continue to integrate.
May our relationship be transformed to represent the beauty, divine love, creativity and sacredness it deserves. Thank you thank you thank you!
With much love and respect,
P.S. I was guided to share my personal experience to provide another perspective on how we can heal. I was afraid to have surgery for many reasons. Letting fear stop us from following our heart is aligning with ego which keeps us in suffering. My guidance was to have surgery. This was my unique path. We each have our own unique path to healing that is already programmed into our heart. I encourage everyone to follow their intuition and lead with their heart when it comes to healing and making decisions about their health. If you would like to discover your unique path to healing you can learn how in my new book “Heart Led Living ~ When Hard Work Becomes Heart Work”